The beauty of an open and honest relationship is that by bringing things up and talking through things, you can sort things out.
As uncomfortable as it was, it has, eventually bought Jules and I closer.
The thing about healing is that it is at times uncomfortable because what you are doing is bringing up the darkness inside, up into the light, to be healed and transmuted into love.
It’s the path to ascension.
Things come up for one reason and one reason only.
To be healed.
Keeping things inside causes nothing but dis-ease. If left untreated it leads to physical illness and blockages that can take years to unblock.
Trust me I know!
It was becoming increasingly awkward however. We did see X a fair bit and both Jules and I were fully aware of my feelings. I had to tread very carefully. I couldn’t appear overly friendly – because Jules would freak and at the same time I didn’t want to make it seem like there was anything weird going on.
I was trying to manage Jules and I was trying to manage my feelings for X.
It’s all part of the journey.
If only we knew that to manage things properly we just need to let if flow, and let it go!
Accept feelings, with no judgement.
Just simply let them be with no attachment.
It is what it is!
Isn’t that what they say?
But because I was unaware at this moment and fully attached to the outcome, I was determined to find out just what X was doing in our lives and at that moment, unbeknownst to me, I had started my spiritual journey back home.