The next few weeks were very difficult.
I was not myself.
Reclusive and emotional I spent my days on the couch in quiet introspection.
I picked up another book, “Am I Going Mad” by Marlyse Carroll which I actually bought for my son but which I found extremely beneficial.
In it the author mentioned Breath Work and that triggered a memory.
Years ago a psychic had said for me to do breath work, not meditation, breath work.
So I picked up my phone and goggled Breath Work Sydney.
I’ll be honest so much had transpired since I started kundalini yoga – things were coming to a head and all I wanted to do was run away.
Run away and be by myself.
It was so bad at one stage I was ready to walk out on my marriage altogether.
To start a new.
I’m a strong girl, capable and independent.
Was it time to experience life differently?
I have been with Jules since I was 16, married since I was 23, that’s 23 years this year – it is all I have known.
This was seriously what was going through my mind.
Luckily, doing the work I do, I was aware.
I picked up the phone and rang Martin Wilks.
He asked me why I wanted to do the session.
I said because I wasn’t sure I wanted to be married anymore and I wanted to find out whether I was coming from a place of truth or reacting to current circumstances.
I would meet him that Friday at Bondi Pavillion.
Marlyse Carroll Am I Going Mad
Martin Wilks www.martinwilks.org